Tempat meluahkan perasaan

Yes, aku tak faham kau nak apa dengan aku sebenarnye?
Bila aku rase aku safe ngan kau, tapi kau rupa2 nye pegi dengan perempuan lain.
Aku tak faham? Bila aku daaa fikir banyak sangat nie, aku rase give up . Aku dipermainkan ke?
Bile kau nak kau cari aku , bile kau taknak kau cari perempuan cantik.
KAU NAK APA?
seriusly aku taknak sakit hati lagi, aku taknakkk !!
Kalau kau nak berkawan ke , kau tau laaa batas kau .
Nie sama je aku tgk kau layan aku and die. Macam takde beza nye .
Daa tuh aku nie sape bagi kau?
Bile bincang masalah kau cakap bising, serabut sampai bile kau nak mcm tuh? Takkan kau nak sakit kan hati aku je. KAU TAK PIKIR KE PERASAAN AKU KE?

Siapa kah aku dimata kau eh? Perempuan untuk dibodoh kan?
Kau memang tak perasan , aku je nampak aku je perasan kau tengok perempuan cantik je. Perempuan cantik comment comment laaa hi dear. Emoticon kiss bagai tuh. Waaahhh kau tak pikir ke perasaan aku.
SAKIT HATI WEH, AKU NIE SEBAGAI APA?

Kadang2 kau condem aku , aku tak make up jumpa kau , pakai baju sama jumpa kau.
Yeelaaa aku balik keje aku memang laa tak make up, kalau kau boleh terima  aku time aku make up je aku pun tak tau nak cakap apa laa.
Ok, aku pakai baju sama semua jumpa kau . Aku bukan takde duit nak beli baju ke apa, cz aku ade bende yang lehih penting untuk aku bayar.
Perempuan len memang laaa die tak perlu byr apa2, die ada mak ayah yg bekerja. So die nak bayar apa je, duit tuh untuk diri sendiri laaa
Aku ada mak je, ayah daa takde. So aku kene laa support mak aku.
Yes aku teringin nak dress up cantik2 mcm orang len, tapi aku pikir banyak kali weh .
Aku tau kau nak gf kau cantik semua, aku pun NAK weh, tapi tersekat . 😞😢
Yeelaaa dimata kau aku mane cantik, perempuan len lagi cantik kan.
If aku beli baju ke apa , aku takde duit nak jumpe kau, So, baik aku save money untuk jumpe kau

Kadang2 aku sedih sangat tak cukop ke aku sacrifice untuk kau? Maybe tak cukop cz aku tak cantik .

Lastly , aku takut kehilangan kau tapi if kau nak jugak aku terpaksa terima . 😔

Sorry sebab selalu menyusahkan
Sorry sebab i am too care about you
U have everything good looking, car, sweet talker u can choose anyone u like .
U dont scared of loosing me . Tell me if iam wrong.
Sorry sebab keep asking kat mane?
Sorry sebab keep call when you not reply my msg.
I dont know how to be like u? Like what u did to me.
U can ignore me as wish u can .
Yes, i am too jelus
Yes, i am scared of loosing you.
Sorry , i cannot make my feeling away from u.
I dont want my relationship like sia2
But lately u always keep scold me. WHY?
U say u want relationship yang matang.
Im trying not to call and text u what i did before. As u wish right?
We will see did u find me? How important i am to you .
Please be honest with me, so that i am not ruin your mood and my mood.
Tak salah kan if bgtau btol2
Sorry sebab marah tak tentu pasal. This is because i am too CARE about you !!
Sorry bukan nak tunjuk kebudak2 kan , but my tears down .
I know i am not important to you , you dont realise that but i realise that . Correct me if i am wrong.
I admid that b sangat baik to me, thanks for coming into ny life and changed who i am now.

THANK YOU for all your sacrifice to me.

BORAK KOSONG

Assalamualaikum dan selamat tengahari

It long time day tak update bukan tak ada masa tapi malas. Banyak je masa hah hari2 dok scroll all social network even bende sama je tengok tapi nak scroll jugak. don't know why tak boleh move on lagi without phone. can u think for me? my phone always in my hand. HAHA (That is not funny okay)

Nak cakap apa eh? ermmm hah okay idea daaa datang .....

Office sekarang yang aku kerja happening sangat but not too happening laa .. hehe kau rasa macam ner kalau kau kuar rehat pukol 12 pm dan kau masok pukol 2pm . 2jam ok hakak nak cakap nie. office korang hado? tapi tak selalu laaa, kadang2 jee *jangan nampak sangat yang kau tuh rehat lame ok. 

lepas kau dah masok lewat tuh, kau boleh lagi borak2, kau boleh lagi main phone haishhhhh *maybe tak kene lagi kot ngan boss . Yes my boss say make this office like your second house, ade bar, ade coffee machine . Sangat relax tapi pasti kan laa keje kau siap semua, jangan lau kau keje tak siap kau nak memain kan. 

Ada fikir nak cari keje lain? yes ada sbb aku rase keje aku nie tak boleh adventure daaa, tahap tuh je . tapi aku sayang nak tinggalkan office nie sbb tak tegas sangat . yes its hard to say good bye . hmmmm By the way, aaku nak cari keje lain jugak laaa, kat sini kau tak boleh belaja lagi daaa, takat nie jee. 

ok nak buat keje . bubye

Wishes

hye korang and assalamulaikum

Dah lame aku tak update blog sebab malas nak cite and takde cite nak diceritakan . Tapi aku nak cakap laaaa kan i would like to say thank you to all happy birthday wishes . 18/7/1991 - 18/7/2015
I am officially 24 tahun . Dah besar kan? Semakin banyk nombor tuh, tade nak semakin kurang . No besar tetapi saya takut sangat untuk menghadapi hari2 yang mendatang 😩 but life must go on bak kate semua org kan . Hehe dah 20an apa kau nak eh? Ofcozes pertama yang didalam otak nie adalah kawen. Yes i am taknak main dalam hubungan cz i big already . It is not a time to play anymore, faham? Kalau taknak, cakap taknak . Kalau hanya nak main kan, kau boleh blah , cz aku taknak . Buang mase aku, buang mase kau jugak !!!

Second, aku nak ade kete sendiri
Third, aku nak ade umah sendiri
Fourth , my happy family

And tak lupa jugak for the cake yayang . Thank you so much b


The end

hmmm

Assalamualaikum semua, i dont know where to start my entry . But i have something stuck in my head . Saya tiada papa since i standard one lagi . Start from that , my mom take part as papa n mama . Kiteorang semua survive sendiri, masing2 buat decision sendiri kat mane your future want to go . Mase study dulu kengkawan semua cakap ayah diorang yg settle kan masuk u nie. Isi borang semua, tak lengkap call ayah . But me i have to settle by my self. Eh kau dah besar kn soh ayah lagi? Time tuh memang tak tentu arah laaa kn. Hmmmm time study jugak soalan yg paling takot sekali siapa tade ayah sila angkat tangan. Pheww . Time tuh u have to be strong . But now i achieve what i want . I make mom proud of me . P/S sayangilah ibu dan bapa anda sebelum mereka menghadap illahi . Al-fatihah

Assalamualaikum everyone ,  is not too late to wish happy ramadhan al-mubarak to all muslim 

Dear EY,  Thank you for accept me as part of your friends *special friends kan?* Thank you because stay with me . Thank you because accept my bad attitude . Thank you cz treat me well . Thank you to be my good boyfriend and mybe my future husband insyaAllah . Anything happen in our relationship please dont easy give up because iloveusomuch. But if u has trying to find other girl who more  good than me, please tell me k. But please dont find . Haha. Thank you cz be more patient on me . Thank you cz u make me happy . Thank you for everything that i cant describe into words. Only me know how special your are to me. Please stay with me !!! 😔.                                                                                     im not a baby doll you wanna play with but i am human being. Why u always keep scold me? Why? If at first we met u dont have any intention to marry, please dont give me hope. Now i luv u so much . People say when we love someone too much, then too much u will get hurt. Yes i know u have your own life and dont want to text 24 hours . I will do for you . Lets talk about when we first couple , i dont text you 24 hours n at that time i start to luv u . What are you doing to me? You go out with someone else right?? N u say i stay far away from u.. But now we are more closed right kan b? Then kenapa buat mcm nie eh jugak? Apa yg b nak sebenarnye ?? Hmmmm

note to myself

Dear NHS,

love yourself first rather than u love others

Why u only give that such of effort but other people don't do the same towards u? wasting your time.

you have say to yourself u have to treat people base on how people treat u. but me myself i can't !!

other people say to u like that, so what can u do?  then they expect u to treat them more than that? no way

start from today, u don't have to think much about people, focus on yourself !!!

XoXo , luv u

EY

I LOVE YOU I MISS YOU 😞

Penang

Assalamualaikum dunia 🙊  Setelah sibuk dengan kerja masing2, we decided to go a shortvacay . Plan setahun lame tau, but last weekend baru ade rezeki nak pi. Bukan kaki kencing eh? Al-maklumlaaa, before this im not working and just finish my study. Hehe . Book flight+hotel a months early , then sebulan tuh topic pasal penang jewlaaakan . Hahahahaah. Then sampai laaa mase pergi n fly to penang . Ahaks. Yeaaaahh finally we arrive penang. Thank you b. P/S dear esa yasmie, please dont waste time on our relationship if u dont want me , just say so if u dont want me. Nak habaq mai i dont want to play with my relationship and iloveu 😍 . Kongsi gambaq satu 

HMM

Assalamualaikum and selamat pagi
I don't know where to start but today is my bad day 060115
Stalker punya stalker terjumpa satu gambar and membuat kan semua perasaan ada.
Terdetik hati untuk Stalker, maybe Allah nak tunjukkan because im too obsessed about you till i forget everything about my life.
Thats y, first time i met you i don't want to excited . In malay lantak kau laaa kan nak buat apa pong
But now, when i start to love you and why you did to me like this? why ?!!!!!!
Apa perasaan awak eh buat saya macam tuh? takdak perasaan

ohh, itulaaa girl yang you sanjungkan dulukan
ada susah senang with you. but why you give me hope?
one year n half this what you want show to me?? hah?
Don't know what to say anymore. very hurt :(

Only i can say, i will pretend our relationship but if you don't want please tell me.

Thank you so much !!!

My Wishlist

yeaaaaaaahhh impian tetap impiann

tapi kau kene tau , yang kau nie tak keje lagi. faham?

huwaaaaaa

takpe lah nak list kan apa impian kita je.

tidak boleh capai harinie insyaAllah satu hari nanti akan ku pasti kan tercapai jua impian ku

1. Iphone

2. Nak bawak mama jalan. pegi umrah ke haji.

3. Around Malaysia with the love one. pulau bebeh

4. Nak hire maid untuk clean kat umah nie, buang apa yang patut.

5. Nak beli kasut, baju, seluar, handbag and more to ladies. ahaks eh kau lelaki ke?

6. treatment rambut dah mcam apa ntah nie kan.

7. Nak ade kete sendiri tapi bila minyak dah naik harga gune jelaahh baby b kite dulu ye. simpan duit banyak2 dulu ye.

okay nie je setakat nie impian kite. hahahha.. 

bila nak dapat interview call nie? rezeki ade dimana2 tapi kita kene usaha. tak usaha you get nothing. 

JANGAN MALAS HAYYU SHAARI !!!

yeaaahhh

finally boleh bukak

dengan segala usaha dan titik peluh

my blog dah boleh bukak. 

tetibe boleh lupa password dio.. haiyakkk..

syukur

lets begin

Assalamualaikum enkorang semua

apa khabor? sihat?

me? 

alhamdulillah

i dont know where to start my story

bukan panjang benor nak cite nyoo

tapi hmmmm

after final sem thesis and internship mula lah aku sebagai penganggur aka tanam anggur aka gemokkan badan dirumah. ahhahha

people would not stop talking selagi kau tak keje, selagi kau duk umah je kan. orang tak kan stop berkate2 sampai lah even kau dapat keje pun nanti

yes dugaan bila tak berkerja

i dont have my own money

bnyak sangat impian tak tercapai nie

kau tak boleh beli baju baru, kau tak boleh beli barang kesukaan kau. 

semua terhad

and most of my schoolmate dah berkeje n berkahwin. n hbu??

still finding for a job. yes i am

i have stop my social network for a while because they keep story about house, married n shopping and so on. and yet now i don't have anything.

sometimes ade orang yang akan mendown kan kau bila tak berkerja, orang akan pandang rendah kat kita. like takde duit sape nak pandangkan. and time sekarang nie lah tgk sape yang ade dekat kau time2 macam nie?

 rezeki masing2. ade orang tuh rezeki die kat sini, and ade rezeki kat sane pulak

Allah know better for your future

and i will keep praying and doa that i get a job. Amin

YAALLAH BERIKAN NUR HAYYU PERERJAAN DAN SEMOGA BERJAYA DIDUNIA DAN DIAKHIRAT .

AMIN.

 

 

saya tak kisah orang nk pandang rendah kat saya.  sbb tak semestinya awak Akan berada diatas.  today your day,  might be tomorrow my day.  bukan nk berdendam ke apa tapi sebelum bercakap pandang diri sendiri dulu. okbai

just saying

dear boyfriend / man / boy

don't make a girl like baby doll - bila Nak layan elok2, bila taknak buang.
don't play with girls feeling - girls memang kite tengok die kuat but actually girls Akan nangis bersama2 kawan2 die. 
don't take girl for granted - if cume nak berkawan, jangan bagi mereka hopes
your girlfriend don't like their boyfriend treat other women like how you treat her. 

mostly mula2 nak kenal je will contact each other,  bila dah dapat layan macam Nak taknak je..  why eh macam tuh?  this not for boys only but for girls too. 
well I'm not perfect,  might be someone don't like me but there has someone will love you forever till the end of my life.  #ohfuturehusband. do you will marry me!?  hahaha.. 
I'm jealousy person because I love you.  I don't want other girls take you from me. ���� but I'm not control you because you not my husband yet.  if awak sayang saya,  awak takkan Tinggal saya,  if tak sayang,  mesti awak Akan Tinggal saya. 

apahal cinta2 nie.  hahaha.  okay saje sesuka.  bai. 

BAGAIMANA saya nak jadi seperti orang lain?  berpakaian mewah,  berkereta mewah.  saya tak dibesar kan begitu tapi saya sangat bersyukur. orang lain maybe sbb diorang ade seorang ayah,  yang support dorang..  ade one of family nie,  semua ayah die tolong Nak kete? barang branded?  semua boleh tapi kenape mereka selalu complain. saya takde ayah sejak kecil lagi,  apa yang awak nak,  awak mesti kene usaha sendiri..  hmmm.  one day I will.  one day insyaAllah diizin tuhan,  saya Akan capai apa yang saya nak. !!!
saya takde semua tuh tapi saya ade kebahagian bersama family Dan rakan2...

bai

luahan hati

Assalamualaikum guys
hmmm
Nak meluahkan perasaan sikit ni,  but if you guys say it is annoying,  eiuuwww,  whatsoever please don't read it!!  first warning

ermm once upon a time,  in a small house,  there have a little girl with her cat playing baby doll.  eh apa nie? apa nie?
actually,  Nak luahan kan ke tidak puas Hatian Di tempt keje.  I don't like the environment because the other staff is not friendly,  and they like to talk behind.  but memang semua tempt Akan ade macam tuh.
tetapikan if the environment is good,  enjoyable,  I don't complain what I am doing right now.  I complained because I don't like it.
can someone please understand what I feel?  hmmmm
I am working like an office boy but me of course office girl kan kan.  hik cume tak kuar antar surat je. 
today situation : pagi2 takde keje,  that I am too boring tahap maximum da,  then I asking one of their staff apa yang perlu saya buat? after that, kuar babi tuh cakap "eh,awak buat apa ni? awak tak boleh pegang nie?  sape bagi awak nie?" grgrgrgr.  siapa saya?  tak boleh pegang document awak?  I just orang luar is it? tak down tapi rase macam if aku tak buat kijo,  kau tanye.  then bila aku mintak keje,  kau cakap macam nie pulak.  memang makan babi bnyk sangat tuh.  saya macam diperbodohkan. huh
everyone know how to do filing,  fax, fotostat,  scan,  email.  each of the document should be responsible by who use the document.  you can hire budak2 pun boleh buat keje macam tuh.  as their part time job. 
setiap hari Akan  kira mase untuk pulang.  if enjoyable,  saya pun suke datang keje. 

I just need someone please understand me. and support me. I'm not complained, hmmm my internship was so good than this!!  ada Satu tahap tuh,  rase Nak menangis.  huhu mesti Kate manja. whatever!!

please give me more patient to face this!! 

okaybai

EY

I MISS YOU

lot of things

Assalamualaikum guys

long time no see right? because i dont have a mood to write it.

now i come back.. yeaaaahh

past few months a lot of thing i had been doing.

satu2 okay?

200614

finish my internship at KNB

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VIVA which presentation my thesis paper. all was going well

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salam ramadhan to all muslims

180714

ding dong happy birthday NHS. so surprise my brother in law buy me a cake, tak  sangka ade jugak orang beli cake for me. heheh. thanks brother in law

and tak lupa jugak yeaaaahh my boyy thanks for the present ye. mula2 we talk about perfume and me ask him to buy for victoria secret. then kiteorang selalu gurau2 je, so i dont expect he buy for me perfume from victoria secret for my birthday present. im so surprise b, thank you so muchhh.. luv you

last tak lupa jugak mum, siblings and kawan yang wish personally to me, thank you so muchieee.. sayang korang semua.

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SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

kisah chici

chici diberi nama
seekor kucing parsi berwarna kelabu yang comel
di adopt dari pet shop
owner dulu die nak pindah umah condo, sbb tuh kiteorang pun amik
almost four years chici dijaga
detik 280514 chici sebagai kenangan

tiada lagi kucing yang akan tunggu depan pintu toilet
tiada lagi kucing akan berada bersama saya bila sedih
tiada lagi kucing yang akan mengikut saya kemana sahaja
tiada lagi kucing yang mengiau

sebelum hari rabu tuh die dah lemau , makan pun tak and minum pun tak
aku beri die minum air and baring kan die kat depan pintu ( chici tak suke baring atas katil)
keesokkan paginye die hilang, cari punye cari rupanye dalam stor.
before this, die tak penah masuk stor tapi nie tibe2
dalam stor tuh die dah mati dengan keadaan lidah terkeluar n mata terbukak

kami terima dengan redha
bia lah die pegi maybe die sakit
but we will miss you chici :)