Dear Hayyu Shaari,

Believe in yourself. Ignore those who try to discourage you avoid negative sources, people, places, things and habits. Don't give up and don't give in. Your life is not behind you, your memories are behind you. Your life is always right here, right now. seize it !! Choose to let each of your experiences today to be a gateway to an even brighter tomorrow

sincerely, 

  me

KISAH SEMALAM

today 30/11/2013

yesterday 29/11/2013

apa yang berlaku? adakah benda burok berlaku? NO !!

hahahahahaha 

is my first time ever bawak lelaki jumpe my family

i bring him along together watching hunger games 

cuak kebebeh

selamat diorang okay

gelak besar lah kan

i dont know why i feel senang dengan this guy

nak tahu sape this guy

her name is esa yasmie

he is funny

bahan orang is hobi dia kihkihkih .. *jangan marah ae

itu sahaja yang boleh saya cerita 

- the end -

hye guys

dah dinner?

im asking that question because i wrote at night 8.45 pm

ermmm

me dah dinner?

ya i had done my dinner

nasi+kicap+ayam

Mak kita masak..

nampak tak M tu huruf besar

so, faham2 je lah eh

AYU!!

kau makan apa?

asal selera kau tinggi?

macam ner nak kurus kalau kau asik makan je?

selagi boleh makan, kita makan

jyeaaahhh

actually bukan nak cite pasal tu

macam mane nak start eh?

semua orang nak berubah kearah kebaikan, betul tak?

semua orang tak nak duduk di bawah je

tetapi kenape ada hamba Allah nie

pandang rendah sangat dengan saya

ya i know i had a lot of mistake before this

im trying to change myself to become a good women for my family, my future husband, child

and ofcourse Allah

hamba Allah says " asal kau dah berubah eh? ala dulu kau pun ada buat dosa, kau tak ingat Allah pulak?"

i just silent

doesn't mean i concede

i think 4what i am answer that question?

as long Allah knows what i feel and what im trying to do

p/s whatever people want to judge you, let it be.

as long you know what to do

peduli orang nak kata, kalau asik pikir orang je susah jugak

for me, saya akan layan semua orang baik

tp orang tu nak layan saya macam apa. its up to you 

fullstop!!

saja suka

assalamualaikum dah salam sejahtera

hello hello hello malaysia

saya disini ingin mengatakan, saya semakin berisi

GEMOK !!

stay kat dungun, makan non stop sbb apa? sbb asik lapar jee 

kalau kat umah, takde lah makan sebanyak nie . kat umah hanya makan sekali sahaja itupun petang

kat dungun makan pagi,lunch,petang and dinner

mane tak gemok kan...

btw,

 Alhamdulillah diberi kesihatan yang baik.

tetapi

nak kurus woiii, atleast my weight is ideal with my height

nie lemak terkeluar2

chin pun dah ada dua.

bagaimana nak turun kan berat badan? 

kurang makan?

ye

exercise?

itu sudah pasti

kalau duk terbaring kat atas katil, tak exercise langsung, jalan sikit pun dah complain

macam ner nak kurus

so

start exercise !!

5 weeks left for the final exam

mentally? not prepare 

physically? not prepare too

dah bile kau nak prepare ayu?

orang lain dah sampai ke puncak

kau still duk kat bawah, dengan attitude yg sama macam dulu

malas, malas, malas

change for your future and last sem for degree before pactical !!

yaAllah mempermudahkan segala urusunku

Amin

hye joyah, kepoh dan seangkatan dengannya

yang bace my blog, bace sahaja okay.

nak comment ke apa, lantak kau lahh... pegi Mampus !!

yang taknak bace tu, get lost !!

oiiii bahasa.. astghafirullahalazim ..

mengucap2 .. tak baik cakap kasar2..

no no no no no no !!

sopan sikit ayu bila berkata..

okay, back to normal

cerita ni time mid sem hari tuh jugak

time hari raya aidiladha.. ingat kan korang? tak ingat tu, buat2 lah ingat

aku, ica, ejam, nana, airish pegi ikea . buat apa pegi ikea time raya2 tu?

tak boleh ke duduk umah? haha

ejam aka my brother nak beli meja kate nye .. okb.. haha joke.

bilik tak kemas, dah nak beli meja. pastu time orang bagi idea taknak dgr tp tanye org nak beli meja macam mane.. well ejam kan.. sape tak kenall?. die ikut kepala die je.. as long die tak kacau hidup aku, tp die protect me .. itu i like. kihkihkih..

dah cari meja semua, kami pun pulang ke rumahhh

ini sebenarnye i nak cerita kat uolls .. kihkihkihkih

at midnight uncle and my sister ajak pegi main bowling..

aku? apa lagi.. orang pertama lah yg excited... hahhahhahha

first game - aku second

second game - cube teka sape lead? hahahah.. tp point tak banyak pun, saje je nak berlagak.. eh suke ati aku lahhh...

tadaaaaaaaaa ...:P

the end

cerita di kedai kopi

hello and assalamualaikum guys

cerita di kedai kopi hahaha

actually cerita nie time mid sem hari tuh

nak bagitau one world yang iolls pegi sunway lagoon 2 times berturut2..

first- saturday- 12/10/2013 - bff and tett

nie muka2 yang setelah sekian lame tak pergi sunway lagoon kihkihkih

 kawan kite anak salleh

 nie kawan kite yang gedik - fara amat hahaha

nie ehem2 - my friends jugakk

muka pagi kene bangun kul 7.30 am and tunggu sunway lagoon tu bukak at 10 am baru boleh masuk

sorry guys iolls amik pic kalian.

berdiri pun jarak2 kan.. diorang kate aku nie sombong sikit time sekolah, bukan sombong but i don't know how to get involve with you'olls . belum kenal maka tak cinta and now dah kenal jadi bff uolls kihkihkih

they are my friends , share sad story, happy story together and lots of joy with them.

second day -13/10/2013 - family

sekian lah cerita di kedai kopi

 lindungi lah mereka dari perkara2 yang mereka tidak ingini. Amin

october

when September end , october menjelma 

btw now on the middle of october

which is my mid sem break

only 1 week break

it is not enough for me

kau ayu cuti banyak mane pun mang takkan cukop lah kan..!!

if eh tp tak ada kalau lah dungun tu ada shopping mall macam one utama confirm tak balik umah.. happy skit study kat sane.. 

ish , i been there almost 5 years . 

teach me how to become independent person

thank you

xoxo

publish :)

september

hello guys and assalamualaikum

student life has begin

so, dont play anymore.. blaja elok2..

okay, papai

P/s : i miss and love you crush 

new sem make me crazy
7 papers all 4 credit hours
how i am to study? can or not .. USAHA

insyaAllah nie last saya jadi student di dungun. i dont want go far away from my family anymore
hope everything will be fine.

chayok2 everyone

ALHAMDULLILAH

9 HARI KITA BERPUASA

my mum

my mum is very beautiful in the world

SUPFIAH BINTI MUKIMIN

the best mum i have

start balik semalam my mum non stop buat keje

then i ask her 

me : mama nie dari pagi tak berhenti buat keje

mama : yewlh, habis tu sape nak buat semua nie?

me : silent 

sorry mum esok ayu akan tolong

mama, dia adalah ibu saya dan die juga adalah papa sy

without papa, dia lah yang membesarkan kami

i proud with you mum

sorry 4 everything *biasalah anak muda banyak ragam* hehe

and terima kasih yang tak terhingga 

one day, i will make you proud of me

p/s i cant describe my mum in words. iloveyou mama

yeaaaaahhhhhhh

tinggal lagi satu je payperrr..

budak finance part 4 sepatutnya habis hari nie, almaklum kene amik banking operation

so, payper this saturday than shoot back home.. hoorayy

it is not end of semester yet because result tak dapat lagi..

hope everything gonna be fine

second day of bulan ramadhan

i love you all

the end of semester

assalamualaikum

the war has begin but actually the war dah start lame dah, 2 payperr left

i'm counting days to go back home

i miss my home

i miss my mum and airish the most and my cats

dah sebulan lebih tak balik, kalau tak every 2 weeks je mesti balik cz nak meet seseorang kahkahkah *funny

sem 4 payperr is killing me , 4 credit hour yang sangat killer 

hope lecturer bagi markah cantik2 ye :)

2.30 am already tak perasan , kenape tak boleh tido ni?

it makes me think about someone... haishhh.. aigooo

help me!! help me !!

he always in my mind :)

but thank you for leaving me because teach me to love Allah first than you :)

good night 

when i miss you
i read all our conversation

sepatutnya you tak perlu bace ayu, stop it !!

i just want you to know i miss the old you . fullstop !!

p/s : good luck !!

i love this song so much

can you imagine if this song dedicate to man . ilovethissong :)

THANK YOU SO MUCH TO

MY FAMILY

MY FRIENDS

busy week

assalamualaikum guys
now 1.40 am while waiting for my laundry tulis blog ni jap

it is a busy week
ayu ada test berderet start from 16/4 till today. 
and tomorrow thursday will be presentation day. 
whole week busy with those thing that make one day you become a success.

ini story lain pulak...........
i dont know why ada hamba Allah nie tell bad things about me and my family but bende tu tak betol pun.
if you taknak say no, please dont give shitt to others and me
or this bad guy just want to look me down?. 
sy tak down okay with that stupid thing
i am who i am.
i can do more if you want !! its simple right ? :)




please don't judge a book by its cover

actually i'am very shy to tell this.

i text him and said, i miss him 

he ignore, he hate, he forget about me

maybe he forget about me that i had enter to his life before

i know his happy with this way.

kenapa bila dah putoz hubungan ngan seseorg tu,mesti tak contact langsung.

bialah terus keep in touch as friends.

saya tak boleh lupakan awak :(

nak meroyan kejap

actually i miss him so much
its so hard to forget
i just want you to know i miss you so much :(

STRESS

day by day stress sangat dengan assignment yang semakin berlambak
test berderet next week..

fikiran serabut dengan bende yang tak sepatut nye pikir..
adalah hamba Allah nie
mula2 okay, cite about his problem everything bla bla bla bla..
tibe2 msg cakap he buntu dont know to choose which one of his gf, he love both
then i said solat and give advise
he : takpelah i dah pilih sorg nie. i taknak tahu dah pasal you . u g lah cari lelaki yang boleh touch and go. salam bye.

what motif die cakap macam tu.. dala cari bila ada masalah je. pastu nak cakap touch and go..
die ingat i nie apa?, perempuan senang2 je.. hello, you such a bad boy, stupid. gerammm nye lahhhhhhhhhhh
serius kau dah sesat. buang semua no. die.
yaAllah kau berilah petunjuk kepada hamba mu ini.

i'm tired of everything :)

short story

hello and assalamualaikum guys

my semester will end soon

but many assignment to do

orang lain dah siap semua, skang i baru nak bz.

start semester relax sangat, now terima lahhh... heheheheh

bubye 

see you soon

i'm happy with my life now

thank you Allah

I MISS YOU 

YA ALLAH TABAHKAN HATIKU 

MENGHADAPI SEGALA 

DUGAAN MU :(

the end of story

i don't know how to express my feeling

sedih sangat apa yang ayu lalui .

people dont know what happen behind this story, only certain people know what happen..

orang cakap senang, cuba die lalui sendiri 

i dont care . 

my conversation

s : bawak berbincang

me : tak boleh dah, sebab dia ingat semua die yang btol.

i cant say anything

s : sabar

me: yes, that only i can do. :(

we have been almost 3 years

to his gf : take care of him, i will pray for both of you :) 

this song for you 

p/s : saya kecewa dengan awak. tolong jangan mainkan perasaan perempuan..

i'm moving on. No more waiting, no more hurt.

if you wanted me, you could've had me, but you didn't. You blew your chance

thank you 4 everything

Allah itu adil :)

hello guys

Assalamualaikum
my last update was on april
its mei

i'm busy with my study, a lot assignment to be completed and this sem is tough for me
i have to face many problem even i actually not strong enough to face it

dan sem ni jugak, banyak cuti....
i have to catch up all syllabus because final exam is just around a corner babes. at the end of june..

#heart attack

:)

Kau ada dikala ku suka

Dikala ku duka

setiap tangisan dan juga ketawa

Kau ada dikala ku perlu

setia menemaniku

Pegang erat tanganku bila aku jatuh

Kau lah yang selalu

Selalu menemaniku

Mendengar kisah pahit manis

Hidup ku

Kau lah yang di situ

Setia menunggu ku

Kau lah yang satu

Menjadi kekasihku

hello guys
i tired of all this
why me?
Allah have plan something good for me is it?
ya i am very hurt but i do like nothing happen
i dont want think too much
thanks for know you
and now Allah show me everything because
Allah plan something for me.
ada hikmah disebaliknye.

yaAllah give me strength and tenangkan jiwa ragu ku.

sad story

assalamualaikum

today, my second week kat dungun for semester 4.

when semester begin i have to face this problem? 

why? must me...

this happen because ada orang ketiga...

i not strong enough to face all this alone 

even i have friends and family beside me, i cant forget everything about you..

why ? my heart strongly say that i love him so much ... 

i tried to forget you, i tried to forget all memories about us, but i cant..

kenangan berlegar dalam fikiran 

what i do is dekat kan diri dengan Allah s.w.t and keep praying 

berdoa kebahagiaan die diluar sana... 

i dont admit i miss him so much.

sy penat menangis. maybe orang cakap i gila and bodoh...

whatever it is...  dont judge me, if you dont know anything..

please go away this feeling.. i hate this feeling .. 

  :(  :( 

if you read this.. 

jaga diri awak baik2, 

jaga kesihatan awak okay..

sy doakan kebahagian awak.

terima kasih untuk semua .. 

xoxo love you ..

Hye everyone

i announce here im going back dungun one week late

hahahahha poyo je kan

and i have to skip class for 1 week

i wrote this bukan nak bangga but serba salah.. hoho ..

first class dah ponteng harap tak ada lecturer and tak blaja lagi

 thats all from me for today

now : leparking with him 

don't judge a book by its cover

assalamualaikum dan selamat tengah hari

hari nie wa nak cakap pasal '' don't judge a book by its cover ''

uóll baru tengok dari luaran seseorang tu uólls dah cakap macam2

so bg wa lu tgk je jangan banyak bunyi pulak..

tak semestinye orang yang keje pakcik or abang guard tade degree tahu..

itu maknenya org tu buat keje part time. maybe die cuti ke apa2 jelahkan....

bg wa jangan pandang rendah dekat sesiapa pun, cuci toilet ke, sapu sampah ke

sebab kita tak tahu pada suatu hari nanti kita pun akan jadi macam tu *opps kita pulak

bagi hamba Allah hidup di dunia semua same nye.. artis ke tak .. wahhhhhhh 

tetapi setiap orang ada kelebihan dan kelemahan masing2

ini untuk diri wa jugak *notetomyself*

KEBOSANAN

 MELANDA

 DIRI

cemburu

i hate this feeling

kenape mesti ada perasaan cemburu ini?

orang kata kalau cemburu tanda nye sayang .. iyewkee??

orang kata 

huhu

i have to let it go *cemburu feeling* hahahaha

but how? i can't . i try many things to let it go ..

cemburu boleh buat orang benci and marah. 

jeng jeng

so ignore it by watching movies

hoho

pavlova

assalamualaikum semua

cuti semester kali ini, i'm not going anywhere 

just stay at home for a month

my sister and  i had decided to baking a pavlova

recipe

4 putih telur

1 cawan gula castor

1 sudu corn flour

half tea spoon  esen vanila

cuka

whipping cream - non dairy whipping cream 

ia hanya ada di kedai cake ..

ha macam nie.. 

tp kitorang hari guna yang spray punya sebab kedai tutup chinese new yearkan?

hehe

AWH

i love you

i miss you

kawan

i miss my friends 

sya

ina

amelin

even we had crisis before, i will never forget everything about u all

thanks for everything

i love you'll

happy new year guys

2013  

im turning 22 this year

i'm get older older n older

*****

yesterday, last payperrr

hope my result with flying colors

malu kalau tak dapat 3.0 n above tp rasenye susah je nak dapat sebab tak ada usaha 

cakap je nak buat ni tu ni but nothing

sem break what should i do?

working part time or besar kan badan?

if keje, duit tu boleh shopping..

yeaaaahhh..

ada ke orang nak amik keje for 1 month -alasan-

nak seribu dalih, tak nak seribu alasan :)

peace yo